I've reached that point in my collegiate career where I'm just ready to be done. School is fine. I love my classes this semester. They are all really interesting, the only problem is that Tuesdays and Thursdays drag on for quite some time. Being gone from 9:30 in the morning until 9pm or later at night wears on you. Thank goodness I only have two days of class though. Otherwise I really don't think I'd be able to survive.
All that's really left is to find an internship, which I've been struggling with for over a year now. I think I'm still a little bitter that I was offered one and then they decided they didn't need me anymore. It's just frustrating. I'm completely out of ideas as to how to find one anymore. I'm not a very forward person and I suck at thinking of the right questions for people that make me sound as interested as I am in their work. I mean seriously, what else am I supposed to do? Maybe if I had better connections or if the stupid DSAB Board I'm on helped at all things would be better, but I'm struggling to hold on right now.
Plus, the one thing that really made me want to walk in May for graduation was that I would get to do it in Northrop Memorial Auditorium. However, I just found out yesterday that the funding was finally approved to renovate the building, which means they are shutting it down on Monday :( This also means that graduation ceremonies have been moved to Mariucci Arena. A decent building, but seriously!? Northrop was my home for marching band for 2 years, I love that building, and with the renovations they intend to do will completely change the essence of the building. Yet another reason I want to get the hell out of Minnesota!
I love this school, but this state keeps doing things that make me very unhappy! So even the thought of becoming a citizen just makes my skin crawl. Granted if I finally find an internship or happen to get offered something permanent I would totally take it, but that doesn't mean I'm going to go out of my way to make it happen. I really miss Wisconsin. But honestly, I just need to go somewhere different. I'm ready for a change and a different chapter in my life to start.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Life so far in 2011
It's been awhile since my last blog post. I may or may not have forgotten that I started one to blog about my senior year in Minnesota. Oops.
Anyways... This semester/year has gotten off to a pretty amazing start. My personal life has finally worked itself out. I still don't understand what happened with my friends last semester, but seeing as it hasn't affected anything recently I've decided to let the past go and look forward. Probably something I should have done awhile ago. I think I learned a lot about myself last semester while dealing with my social problems. Mainly, I discovered that I actually handle stress really well. However the knots in my back would probably say otherwise. With all of my ups and downs of last semester the 2 hardest ones were marching band and the lack of finding an internship because of my time commitment with band. Ironic, isn't it?
According to quite a few band alums being in that organization helped them find a job. Totally not the case for me. Marching Band was the main factor as to why I didn't get 2 of the jobs I have interviewed for in the past. You'd think my willingness to take on more responsibility during band might make them see that I am determined enough to do something. Oh well. I'm hoping that at some point this semester I will find someone that will take a chance on me and hire me for an internship so I can graduate. All I really want to do is walk in the ceremony in May with my friends and at Northrop. Is that really too much to ask for? Right now all of my hopes at finding an internship land on 2 things: my relationship with Stephanie (the Housing alum on the Design Student and Alumni Board with me), and going to the Job and Internship Fair at the end of February. One of these two things has to help me land an internship...right? I'm running out of plans and ideas as to where to go and who to beg for a job.
As far as classes go and such, I really enjoy all of my classes. I'm really behind in readings though. So I should probably be working on that, but the thing about readings is the fact that the professors go over everything in our readings during class. Clearly this does not give me the motivation to do them during my free time. It might help if I stop going out 3 to 4 times a week. Going to the bar is just so much more satisfying than doing my readings though. I love going out with Patti and Syressa to the bar. We've kind of devised a schedule as to where we are going out every week during the semester:
-Monday's are Buffalo Wild Wings for $100 prize trivia.
-Tuesday's and Wednesday's I say home and generally work out with my roommates.
-Thursday's are Trivia at Big Ten Restaurant.
-Friday's are Shout! House downtown.
-Saturday's we've recently decided are dedicated to the bars in Dinkytown, which generally means we'll go to the Library because its one of the best bars on campus.
-Sunday is my day to relax and probably work out again.
Like I said, I prefer to go out with my friends to make up for last semester than to do the 150 pages of reading per night that I should be doing. Other than that I'm having the same old boys issues I always have. Maybe I'll go into more detail about boys later. The topic of boys generally takes an entire blog post.
Anyways... This semester/year has gotten off to a pretty amazing start. My personal life has finally worked itself out. I still don't understand what happened with my friends last semester, but seeing as it hasn't affected anything recently I've decided to let the past go and look forward. Probably something I should have done awhile ago. I think I learned a lot about myself last semester while dealing with my social problems. Mainly, I discovered that I actually handle stress really well. However the knots in my back would probably say otherwise. With all of my ups and downs of last semester the 2 hardest ones were marching band and the lack of finding an internship because of my time commitment with band. Ironic, isn't it?
According to quite a few band alums being in that organization helped them find a job. Totally not the case for me. Marching Band was the main factor as to why I didn't get 2 of the jobs I have interviewed for in the past. You'd think my willingness to take on more responsibility during band might make them see that I am determined enough to do something. Oh well. I'm hoping that at some point this semester I will find someone that will take a chance on me and hire me for an internship so I can graduate. All I really want to do is walk in the ceremony in May with my friends and at Northrop. Is that really too much to ask for? Right now all of my hopes at finding an internship land on 2 things: my relationship with Stephanie (the Housing alum on the Design Student and Alumni Board with me), and going to the Job and Internship Fair at the end of February. One of these two things has to help me land an internship...right? I'm running out of plans and ideas as to where to go and who to beg for a job.
As far as classes go and such, I really enjoy all of my classes. I'm really behind in readings though. So I should probably be working on that, but the thing about readings is the fact that the professors go over everything in our readings during class. Clearly this does not give me the motivation to do them during my free time. It might help if I stop going out 3 to 4 times a week. Going to the bar is just so much more satisfying than doing my readings though. I love going out with Patti and Syressa to the bar. We've kind of devised a schedule as to where we are going out every week during the semester:
-Monday's are Buffalo Wild Wings for $100 prize trivia.
-Tuesday's and Wednesday's I say home and generally work out with my roommates.
-Thursday's are Trivia at Big Ten Restaurant.
-Friday's are Shout! House downtown.
-Saturday's we've recently decided are dedicated to the bars in Dinkytown, which generally means we'll go to the Library because its one of the best bars on campus.
-Sunday is my day to relax and probably work out again.
Like I said, I prefer to go out with my friends to make up for last semester than to do the 150 pages of reading per night that I should be doing. Other than that I'm having the same old boys issues I always have. Maybe I'll go into more detail about boys later. The topic of boys generally takes an entire blog post.
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