Life Update

Well, it's been a while since my last post. Figured I should write something of relevance.

It's December 1st and I have 15 days left of my permit position with the City of Minneapolis. Honestly, I couldn't be happier that it is ending. Ever since my move from the South Office back to the Downtown Office and under a new supervisor, everything has kind of gone downhill. Within a month of moving back downtown, my arm has some serious issues going on with it. I have no idea what happened or how, but it is one seriously fucked up problem. 5 months later and I think my arm is finally getting better. Who knows if that will last. I'm just happy that it is finally not in a constant state of unrest and pain anymore. I can't even explain what the problem is anymore, you just kind of know when something is off with your body, and this was something very wrong.

Either way, things have not been going very well with me in Minnesota, and I am finally moving back to Wisconsin on December 22nd. It will be so nice to not have to travel very far anymore to go home. Don't get me wrong, I am sad to be leaving the few friends I have left in this city, but I think Wisconsin is where I truly belong right now. I'm definitely not looking forward to unemployment or living with my parents again, however, it will be nice to not have to worry about paying back my loans for a little while.

Well, that's all I have for now. So to sum it up: I'm about to be unemployed, I'm moving home, and there is something weird going on with my arm.

Realizations

Well, I guess it's official: I'm staying in Minneapolis for awhile.  I was given a promotion, as of January 3rd, my new title is Office Support Staff (permit).  Permit means I don't get paid holidays or any other benefits, but it did come with a pay raise, which will help a lot.

However, after a week of working in the south office instead of downtown, I realize that I'm not very happy with my life right now.  The more I think about it, the more I want to move to Madison.  Honestly, I'm not even entirely sure why I want to move there.  A lot of it has to do with wanting to be somewhat closer to my family, but not so close that I have to see them all the time.  Who knows if that's actually the reason.  I guess I'm just realizing that I'm just not happy right now.  I can always tell when I'm unhappy because I can see myself gaining weight again, but I don't do anything to change that.

Maybe I just miss having some sort of life that doesn't involve doing nothing but going to work, sitting in the same room all day, going home and sitting on my ass for the rest of the night because I have nothing better to do.  Have I done this to myself?  Do I need to go out with people more often?  The problem is, all my friends seem to ditch me every time we make plans.  Lets take this past weekend for example: I made plans with 2 friends for Saturday night, so I ended up turning down other plans so I could see them for once.  What happened you ask?  Well, both end up ditching me, so not making plans with my other friend was a stupid choice.  Luckily, my roommate brought a bunch of her friends over to our apartment.  I'm just happy I didn't end up doing absolutely nothing all weekend.

What ever happened to having reliable friends?  I feel like I can't count on anyone in Minneapolis.  Maybe that's why I'm so interested in leaving...